Growth pains and feeding the dream…

So there we are, at the middle of this momentous year, already !

Time has flown and many things have been incubating and brewing and taking form in  the apparent stillness of my world. Most of my important moves in the past 6 months have taken place in my head… excepted for a couple of trips around this magnificent planet we live on, and thank Goodness for those…!

It takes time to grow. And often it’s as uncomfortable as it is exciting… At times I have a crystal clear vision of my future as well as the decisions and steps leading to it… and at other times, all of it seems so conditional and surreal that I want to stay still, close the door, take a good book and a cup of tea… and forget about it all !

Never the less, by leaps and bounds and pretty quietly, ideas have matured and things have shifted. No paint has been put on any canvas yet, and no big change is visible as now in my surroundings, but incubation happened. Slowly but surely,  projects that were overwhelmingly far out of reach have been rendered feasible. Opportunities showed up,  and what was muddled and contradictory reflections have decanted and left place to clarity. Of course, I know that every step of the way, Growth is going to have its way with me and that sometimes I’ll be looking back to my comfort zone and wondering what the heck I am doing…

But one doesn’t grow in one’s Comfort Zone ! Nope. Growth happens on the edge of one’s abilities and it takes courage, faith and a certain amount of carelessness to be there… on that edge. Or maybe just a good dose of boredom with the routine of Comfort ? Who knows ?

At any rate, between visionary projections, network approach and lots of contradictory feelings, ground has been covered and I find myself today in a different place than I was when the year started… You could not tell just now because it is not obvious, but things are coalescing and despite the multiple pains of growth I feel exhilarated and more excited than scared at this point ! And in a few days I will know if the Universe reflects in physical form what I have been imagining all along…

That’s why in the next 2 days, I will not think about anything important, not do anything consequential and not handle anything but enjoying the moment and spending

time with good company. Totally ignoring whatever might be soon requiring  all my energy and full presence… Today I will appreciate every minute with abandon… Carpe Diem…

More later…

“Blissful Face” Emmeline © 2012


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